I Choose...

I love music! I am not very good at expressing my own thoughts so a lot of times I find that the words to a song explains them better. A special thanks to India.Arie for these words:

Here I am now looking at 30 and I got so much to say
Gotta get this off of my chest, gotta let it go today
I was always too concerned about what everybody would think
But I can't live for everybody, I gotta live my life for me
I've reached a fork in the road of my life where,
ain't nothing gonna happen unless I decide

I choose, to be the best that I can be
I choose, to be authentic in everything I do
My past don't dictate who I am...
I choose

I done been through some painful things, I thought that I would never make it through
Filled up with shame from the top of my head to the soles of my shoes
I've put myself in so many chaotic circumstances
But by the grace of God I've been given so many second chances

But today I've decided to let it all go
I'm dropping these bags I'm making room for my joy...

Because you never know where life is gonna take ya and you can't change where you've been
So today, I'll take the opportunity to choose
Release the guilt about why things happened the way they did 'cause life is gonna do what it do
So today, I'll take the opportunity to choose

From this day forward I'm going to be exactly who I am
I don't need change the way that I live just to get a man, no
I even had a talk with my mama and I told her the day I'm grown
This day forward every decision that I make will be my own

'Cause I choose...